Being a mom part three
Life was perfect; I have two kids, a boy and a girl. Then
when my little girl turned three, I suddenly missed the smell of a baby and
imagined how our life will be if I have three kids.
Exactly 10months ago I learned I was pregnant again. My first-born
was already 4 years old and my little girl was three. My life back then was
beginning to fall back into pieces. We were enjoying our bike dates, strolling
at the malls without having to tug along strollers and lesser whining kids.
But then, having another child is a blessing. It was what I
imagined exactly a year ago. When
I learned I was pregnant, I suddenly felt deprived again of my freedom. A
selfish feeling of me but hey, I am being honest. It was a bittersweet feeling
needless to say. Weird? I know.
When my EDD draws near, I suddenly felt really excited. I
started to research again because it felt like I was a first time mom all over
again. I joined support groups and spent hours in the internet reading
articles. It was more than three years since my little girl and there was so
much improvement with regards to cloth diapers. It was also later on that I
learned that my carrier I used for baby wearing was not recommended. There came
to a point really that there was so much information and my mind just want to
scream. But joining these groups really helped a lot!
Now, I felt really ready about my birthing and all. I was
sort of ready about everything well except again for another pain and recovery,
which is different in every pregnancy by the way. Will share with you my
birthing story in a separate entry.
Stay with me. Okay?